TRIGGER WARNING
If you’ve ever seen Forrest Gump you’ll be familiar with one of most famous quotes probably ever which is ‘Life is like a box of chocolates you never know what you’re gonna get‘. Now to many that might not of struck a chord with them and up until recently it certainly never had with me that was until a few weeks ago when I sat down and made one of the best decisions I have in a while which was to rewatch Forrest Gump.
Now let me just give you a bit of background, I always seem to have at least one day where i feel fantastic and then the next day it’s like the universe wants to slap me down a peg or two. Now that one day in particular I was having a really bad day I had spent the majority of that day dealing with poisonous suicidal thoughts, I got massively overwhelmed and I got to the point where my mind was exhausted of telling myself no (anyone who has dealt with suicidal thoughts will know that feeling) I was drained of that constant battle and I began contemplating how I would actually take my life, those suicidal thoughts had won and now my mind was trying to turn them into actions. I could feel myself vanishing again and that was turn around point for me that day I refused to vanish, I began telling my mind no again and that’s when I began looking for a distraction and that’s when I put Forrest Gump on.
When it started there was nothing out of the ordinary I was just rewatching a film I i had seen a handful of times that was until I heard Forrest’s mum say to him ‘ Life is like a box of chocolates you never know what you’re gonna get‘. It seemed to just perfectly sum up what my mind was going through, one of the most draining parts of mental health for me is the constant fight of my mind going from one extreme to another I never know where it’s going to be from one moment to the next and alot of the time that does massively overwhelm me. Now this film quote just clicked with something in my head and i began telling myself that’s it’s okay not to know where you are from one moment to the next. It just began opening up levels of thinking for me and I didn’t notice it exactly that day but a change happened. Every day I find myself having a bad day now I repeat the quote out loud Life Is Like A Box Of Chocolates You Never Know What You’re Gonna Get and now it tells me that some days are going to be bad days (just like occasionally you’ll have a chocolate you really don’t like) and some days will be good days (just like when you pick your favourite chocolate out the box). It’s not the end of the world if you get a chocolate you hate just like it isn’t if you’re having a really bad day. You see that one simple quote has completely altered my way of thinking and it’s made me realise that life really is like a box chocolates some are good and some are bad just like some days are good and bad and we can’t help that all that matters is that at least we’re lucky enough to be able to have another one and now for that I’m really grateful.
i apologize for the long winded story and if it didn’t make sense in parts but hopefully by the end you understood what I was trying to say.
Also remember to be kind to eachother you never know what someone else is dealing with.
Confessions of a Suicidal Man 