The Hard Times

(Trigger warning)

So this past week I’ve had a really hard time dealing with my head and own thoughts. I have been trying to follow the plan and activities I’ve got in place with my therapist but I’ve been really struggling, it’s definitely been the toughest week I’ve had since my therapy has began. My suicidal thoughts seem to be back with a vengeance and nearly every day this week the thoughts have been there and that’s just been massively overwhelming, I have spent the majority of the week feeling drained and almost trying to force myself to get up. I’m going to say it, this week I have been DEFEATED! and that pains me massively to even say but one thing I’ve learnt is that you’ve got to be truthful even when it hurts because it’s that, that will save you.

I’ve been massively struggling with social distancing it’s hard to not be able to see family and friends and have that support network around you especially in these times but I know that’s a thing alot of people are dealing with right. It’s times like this you need to be open and truthful with others and yourself! It’s so easy in these times to feel so alone and that’s why if anyone reading this is feeling like please just reach out to someone, even if you feel like you have no one to talk to message me on here and I’ll always have an ear, sometimes it’s just the kindness of strangers that we need.

Listen were humans we all have our own battles and flaws to deal with and sometimes it’s okay to feel broken, it’s okay to not get out of bed, it’s okay to not do housework, it’s okay to not shower and it’s okay to not be okay BUT you can never give up!!